Filed under Strictly Medical, CyanideDecember 5, 2005 GMT 08:43
by cyAnide
Over the past 4 years in medical school, medical professors, doctors, lecturers and seniors continue to drill in us the importance of approaching patients with compassion, love and sympathy. My teachers say:
“They are not cases: The enlarged spleen at Ward 3. Bed number 50. The alcoholic liver disease at the corner. The diabetic foot that came in last night.”
“They each have a name. Like you and me. And they have parents, children, family. Each of these patients come to you with a health problem, and behind them is a host of family members, relatives and friends who worry for them and love them the way your parents love you.”
“They ache, feel, cry and laugh just like everyone else.”
Funny, unlike the great number of medical facts doctors have been drumming into my head for all these years, these few statements stay with me from the very first day I heard them till now. And they resurface in my mind every now and then. Each time I talk to an ailing patient, I’d try my best to check my manners, behaviour and priorities lest I turned into a doctor who is only interested in gaining satisfaction by solving medical problems without even feeling and thinking for the sick man I’m dealing with. Well, for some unknown reason, THIS matters to me a lot.
Yet, I never realised what I’ve been truly missing in the understanding of this important virtue of the medical profession until my own father lies on the hospital bed at the mercy of the medical staff and God. It is a big blow for the family to learn that our loved one is unwell. It is heart-wrenching to witness the physical and emotional suffering. It is even more devastating as we look on feeling helpless and almost hopeless.
Waiting for the final diagnosis is like standing at the mouth of an active volcano which is ready to erupt anytime. You are pegged high up in danger not knowing if the end of you is near and when. The last thing you need at this point of time is to be greeted with ignorance, delay, procrastination, empty promises and mistreatment from the management team. You stand perched by the hospital bed dutifully early every morning in the hope to catch the doctors in charge when they are making their daily rounds so that you can have some questions answered to help clear the muddle in your head and ease the worry in your heart. But alas, if only the doctor cares to spare a few minutes of his precious time for you and your family.
True, not everything should fall on the shoulders of doctors alone. Yet a doctor can give so much even by a smile, a kind word or by providing a minute of attention.
I wish I never have to state that I’m a medical student to obtain special treatment and immediate attention from the hospital staff. I wish I’d never have to pull strings to get things done and the many confusions in mind cleared. But I had to because everything seemed to come to a halt at the very beginning. I do not want to wait in vain. I need to see answers and effort. I do not want to wait till it’s all too late. I’m thankful that at least something is being done now. We’re grateful that we have at least what seems like an answer. However, I hope I’m one of the few to witness the ugly side of medicine and its management and I pray that all the sick are being treated with utmost care regardless of status and identity.
Eversince the day I saw Dad on the hospital bed - his small frail figure almost disappearing in the sheets that keep him warm, I see him in all the patients I come across in the hospital. My throat hurt and I gagged with him during his bronchoscopic procedure. I panted with him when he gathered all his strength to cough. I shivered with him as he curled up and hid from the cold undernearth the comforter. I’m sure you will feel the same if he were your own father.
Though Dad never did complain about anything except for the hospital food (yeah, I told him he’s too picky on food) in these 3 weeks, I somehow could feel his sadness. I wish I could make him see that I’m accompanying him through this journey and that he is not alone - even when I’m not speaking much.
May God bless him… This will be my only Christmas wish this year.